Soleilmavis' Story (Dec 2001--Apr 2002)

Soleilmavis' story(Dec 2001---Apr 2002)

(2006/7/9)

I believe in God. And I believe these group people who have been using Remote Mind Control/Directed Energy Weapons to abuse and torture us are real Evil Spirit.

Since 2002, I have been telling them: "If you can drop down your weapons, you will be in the Heaven". "But you will be in the Hell if you keep using their weapons to abuse and torture".

Torturers had been using their Remote Mind Control/Directed Energy Weapons to open a door of the Hell.

For the past few years, while we were suffering from the terrible abuse and torture, the whole world were also suffering: terrible natural disaster; Terrorist voilences; Plagues; Economics problems.

I wish everyone know the terrible torture we have been suffering, and notice the the whole world have been suffering with us together.

All the evil followers who have been using Remote Mind Control Weapons/Directed Energy Weapons to torture and harass us must be sentenced into jail according to law.

Dec 2001—Jan 2002

This is a very warm Melbourne summer. If you say it is warm, it is a bit exaggerate, because I still wear a black jacket which has blue downy collar and lining. But you still can feel the warm, from the smiling faces around me, I can see the warm.

My roommate is a 21 years old Malaysia Chinese girl--E, she can cook many kind of food which she learned from her grandmother. Staying with such a young girl, I feel that my life goes back for 10 years, almost forget my age, and I feel I am a real student now… and original I am do a student who is studying Master degree here. The life is so free and unfettered and it seems that I had never pasted any pressure from working and life.

The student´s life is like a pure fairy tales. Every morning about 8 am, I will go to face the teachers´ smiling faces and some suddenly questions, afternoon I will stay in the library and become a book worm. E is a good small guide, if I want to go to some places, just need to call her, and she will bring me to any where.

That is a very normal summer afternoon. Just because it is too normal, I even could not remember the day. E and I buy some Chinese food and back to our room, E finds there are some big foot prints on the floor. E rushes to her room to check her computer and we do not lost anything. After have our dinner, I lie on the bed and continue to read book HTML, but only a while, I get a high fever, my whole body is very hot. I open the electric warmer, still feel very cold. I try to sleep until morning, look at the mirror, I don´t find any abnormal. But head is pain.

Crossing 2 vertical streets and crossing 2 horizontal streets, it is our school. The life looks no difference, teachers and classmates´ smiling faces are the same, and E is same. If there are some changes, it is that I always feel that there are some eyes from far corner to look at me, but when I try to look for those eyes, they will turn to other places.

My head starts pain. Because of the terrible pain, I feel that I am living in a dream. Walking along the street, I feel that I am like plankton floating in the water, and people around me look like some swimming fishes. Sometime I see their lips are moving about, but I can not hear what they are talking about, their eyes are hummed and hawed.

Some mid-nights, I can hear some gossip, suddenly weak up, it is silence and only the lonely sound of car passing by from a very far street, companying with the more and more cold Melbourne Summer.

After my head starts pain, I feel more and more cold, some hummed and hawed eyes like some frozen fishes´ eyes which just floating up from the bottom glacier of the South Pole.

Those frozen fishes start to talk in a very cold summer mid-night:" She is ugly! She is dirty!" Suddenly weak up from the dream, I hear a clear voice:" Quiet!" and there are few young voices shouted:"She is ugly!" One voice in Chinese say:" She is awake, don´t talk!" and another voice in Chinese say:" we will let other people know about her."

These are some very sadness days. It is always rain and I can see God is crying. The Sun looks like a cold grayish white stone coving with dust. The black clouds open its big mouth to swallow the setting sun toward evening everyday. The leaves are floating in the wind helplessly.

I can hear a lot of voices very exciting gossip but everyone around looks like remain indifferent. I can feel more people follow my track and those gossip in midnight become unbridled, and hubbub loudly. I become wan and sallow. More voices joining in, like some evils just came out from the Hell and keep sucking my spirit and consuming my energy. I don´t know how to let those evils disappear from my life, only becoming more and more reticent day by day.

I spend more time on studying. I am terribly headache, some time the headache will let me lost my sight, or lost my hearing, or even make my teeth lost consciousness.

Maybe I am walking through the deep and secluded dead valley; just become very reticent, become a stone. And helpless is like a death rattan, spreading in the bottom of heart. My heart always rain, and my face becomes a statue. Because I hear the voices coming from ground floor of our accommodation. I shift to R´s house.

R is a young boy only around 24-25, at this age, the young boy always has a happy face, and of course he has a happy heart. R has a girl friend with white hair and visits him every week from another city.

I start to go to see the doctor. It is a China Herb medicine doctor; he can speak Vietnam, Mandarin, Cantonese, and English. He is Vietnam, very kind and he can write Chinese very well. It is only 10 minutes walk to him clinic. He always gives me medicines freely.

Those group evils still work very hard days and nights. I can not see their faces, but their voices keep worrying me, sometimes the voices sound near, sometimes sound far. My stomach starts pain, my legs start pain, and my hands start pain. My parents post me some medicine, but it does not work. I start to pray to God:" If God can see my suffering, why God does not just let me die to free me from the suffering?" I can not hear God´s answer, but I always can see the rain falling from the sky. One day I hear a voice say:"She is not the one we are looking for!"

Everyday I would go to school. The faces of the teachers and classmates seem blurred, like glasses drenched by rain. Everything looks like soaking in the water. My classmates are very nice to me. Each time teacher asks us a question, they will tell me which question, and also they will help me write down the homework.

Opposite the house, it is a big grass ground. Sitting in front the window, I can see the whole grass ground. Often sitting in the darkness quietly looking at the grass ground in the darkness, it seems floating in the surface of the water. And there is a golden leaves tree, shinning at the darkness; the outline is very clear; the leaves are dancing softly with the wind. I always feel that I want to break a branch, but never do that.

I have a small off white vase with 2 roses paint on it—one yellow rose and one pink-purple rose. I find it in a second antique shop, because of its classic elegance, I like it very much.

That is a very long January, I meet many stranger would ask me a question:" Can you speak Cantonese?" during the whole January, if I do not go to school, I would sit in the darkness, seeing the golden leaves dancing in the darkness. Maybe that is my only happiness while I suffering terribly from headache, stomach.

R seldom stays at home. I hear a lot voices from Neighbors. Sometime I hear a voice shouted:" Stop abusing her!" One midnight, I hear a voice says:" If you like her, you can fuck here!" I rouse suddenly from sleep and break out in a cold sweat.

I am very tired. I feel that I am trudging over the desert alone and people looks like some floating shadow. Some of my classmates see my reticent, and say to me:" We know you are sick, you must go to see the doctors!" I take one day medical leave, and doctor only gives me some panedal.

I get a fever again, but this time it is on daytime. I feel very cold and shiver all over with cold. I feel a fire burning from stomach , slowly spread to arms and legs, and finally to head. My body is so hot that it seems burn my hand. The fever last for 30 minutes and I tried to sleep for a while, but I feel my body floating in the air. I pray to God:" if you are really there, why don´t you just let me die!" It rains heavily that whole night, that golden tree dancing in my dreams for the whole night.

The examination day is coming. From the internet, I find a name---lie detector. I bring my passport and go to the police office, a very young and tall boy ask me some question. I tell him:" I am under surveillance by lie detector." He asks:" What´s that?" I tell him:" something that other people know about your thoughts." He says:" we never use that in Australia." "But do you have any enemy in Singapore or China?" he asks. "No, I don´t have any enemy in Singapore or China." I stop for a while and say:" I don´t know who use that to surveillance on me. But a group of people are following my track, they are dangerous in my life! Some of their voices sound comes from neighbors houses." He says:" we will check out your neighbors."

After I come out from Police Office, I declare to all the voices:

a) They must do everything according to law.

b) They can not hamper my studying my Master Degree

c) They can not destroy my privacy. They are not allowed to ask me or tell me anything about my past life. It is my privacy.

On the morning of the examination day, I go to the hospital. Afternoon, it is the writing examination. But my eyes are dim; the words look like floating on the paper. I don´t know how I finished the paper and go back home and sleep for the whole night but wake many times. The next few days´ examinations are smoothly. On the last day, my teacher comes to me:" Do you have the first day´s medical leave?" I say:´ Yes." He says:" Give it to me and I will apply one more chance for writing test for you." Few days later, a lady arranges another writing test for me. I gain 17 score and the total score is 20.

After examination, teachers arrange a BBQ for students. All students come from many countries. It is a big house which has a big garden and 2 dogs—a big white dog and a very small black dog. Looking around, there are some bare hillsides with dried grasses. Another nearest house is around 100 meters. Standing silence in the garden, hearing everyone laughing heartily, I am thinking if all the hillsides are growing trees, standing there in a wind day, we can hear the soughing of the wind in the pines in a wind day; we also can hear birds singing.

Some students also arrange another BBQ at the bank of Melbourne River. I sit silent on the grass ground, hearing their laughing and talking, looking at the boats on the river; sea birds flying across the sky. Some elder are having BBQ just next to us.

R also drives me to 100km countryside.

Nearby my area, I see more and more cars, a new pub, some new shops and a new beauty parlor. One day, I take the train from Melbourne station, a man A about 50 years old, follows me to Footscray Train Station. He says he wants to give me a job opportunity, and another day, he buys a cut of orange juice for me. That summer, the sun in Melbourne always looks grey and cover by some dirt. A´s face also looks hazy. He asks me:" what do you suppose to do in Australia?" I tell him:" concentrate to study, but I have registered a company, so I have enough time, I can do some business." He asks:" do you have any boyfriend?" "Yes, he is in another country." We only sit for about 10 minutes, he tells me:" Don´t take any medicines." I tell him:" I am very sick. But I would take more Chinese medicine instead Western Medicines."

After receiving examination mark sheet, there are 2 weeks holiday. I stay at home almost everyday. Looking at the mirror, like looking at a stranger-pale and reticent. I always remember the first day I came to the school, wearing a grass green shirt. E asked me:" how old are you?" I ask her:" Guess!" she says:" 20?" I laughed:" Maybe!" E told me:" I am 21, one year old than you. I will care for you, don´t worry that you are alone in Australia."

Those group evils still harass me, and I start to understand that my diseases are come from their torturing. Even I can not see their faces, but I can feel their cold eyes. They are like evils from the hell, coming to the earth and bring all the darkness. They can not go to heavens so before they are destroyed by God, they are ready for a last-ditch stand to make suffering and catastrophe, launch wars and disputes. R tells me: he has a sister; she is a mother of 2 children and living alone in a small house. It is more convenience for me to stay with her. So end of January I shift to S´s house.

Feb 2002

The first time I meet S, she wears a very old red jacket, short brown hair. She likes wheel shoes. Everyday a lot of people visit her, different skin colors, different races. The first time I shift into S´s house, she is very warmth. Anywhere I go—to the bank, post-office, supermarket, to see doctors, she will accompany me. S is a very nice looking girl, one day she borrow a green skirt from me and dresses up, looks very brilliant. I think that green skirt is more suitable for her. I do not keep a lookout to S, the only important things with me is just my passport and some documents which I have summit to Australia Immigration to apply Student Visa.

I am very sick, so I even can not have any energy or physical strength to care what she is doing everyday, and I seldom talk to her. I go to see doctors, but no doctors can cure me. Most of my time, I lie on the bed—headache, stomach and body pain, sometimes my hands also shake and can not hold anything; my leg also lose any strength always.

I hear a voice says:"you are poisoned." I think if it is a kind of poison, it should be drained out my body according to sweat. So I drink a lot of water everyday, and sit beside the heating machine and let myself sweat, wearing many clothes some time even covering myself by a quilt. After my clothes are drenched with sweat, I go to take a shower and change another clothes and go to steam sweat again. Sometimes, S also joins me to sit beside the heating machine.

I hear a voice says:" Eat a lot of meat, they will not able to abuse you". I buy a lot of meat everyday, sometime even buy some bones and cook a big pot of bone soup. It is very oily, it is terribly, but I close my eyes and hold my breath, pour into my mouth and swallow quickly.

I hear a voice says:" Eat sugar, they will not able to abuse you." I buy a lot of sugar and drink a lot of very thick sugar water.

I hear a voice says:" Drink milk, they will not able to abuse you." I drink many milk everyday.

Some voices say:" the left neighbor of S is Melbourne police officer; right neighbor is from Singapore; opposite neighbor is from New Zealand." And some voices also say:" these two girls look like twins." They seem look for another girl.

Sometimes I would go to supermarket. I can see a lot of people from different countries. And I also can see some twins.

I start diarrhea very seriously, my defecate looks like orange juice. At that time, Melbourne always rain. Sometimes I would sit beside radio and listen some soft music. But most of my time, I stay in the bed. If I get some strength I would walk for a while around the house. There is a very small garden nearby my house. Sitting in the garden, I can see my seabirds and many pigeons. A lot of people would bring their dogs to come to have a walk.

I like a tall and slender vase in S´s house. Everyday, I would pick a flower from outside and put inside the vase. I also like a picture, it is about 2 angels. S´s house has a very small garden, everyday a lot of pigeons come here, and I feed them with rice.

I hear more noisy voices and also some crying. One day, I see an Indian boy come to give S a rose. And I hear a voice says: "She is my girl friend." I think maybe someone who comes to see me, so I "tell" them:" Tomorrow 10am, I will go to the train station to wait them." Next day early morning, I arrive to the train station on time, and see some people there. But I hear a boy says:" I don´t know her; she is not my girl friend."

Some voices say:" You still don´t know who you should trust!" Some voices say:" You still don´t know who can help you."

I hear a quarrel:" Why do you poison her?" "No, we did not poison her. We just want to help her. If you don´t believe, you can ask her." So I tell them:" Don´t quarrel, don´t fight, everyone come here just want to help me."

Middle Feb, there are 4 days I can not eat anything. I lie on the bed. I hear some people are discussing:" we will arrange a wedding for her." During that week, I hear a lot of voices are talking about the wedding parties. I ask S to call a taxi for me. S asks her friend send me to hospital. I tell the doctor:" Maybe I ate something wrong, I had headache, stomach, my body was pain and I am diarrhea. They check my blood and urine. I call a taxi home, and hear a lot of voices on the way:" Tomorrow is the wedding party!"

After I come back home, I ask S to help me to buy the medicines. I take 10 pieces. Next day, I take 15 pieces. I feel better.

On the school registration day, I have to go to school. Morning I go to see Doctor, afternoon, I take train to Melbourne City. I drink a cup of hot chocolate in a McDonald, but I do not see the wedding party and any wedding car.

In school, a lady receives me kindly. She says she is the Director of Business School. She helps me to choose the courses.

Coming out from the school, I go to buy a CD workman and some CDs, the reception gives me a wrong receipt, I ask her change, but she still do not change accurate.

I am very tired of those noisy voices, I start listening to CD everyday almost 24 hours.

Many new shops are opened in Melbourne City. There are many People who lookelike come from all kind of countries. Sometime, S brings some friends back home. People who lived in Some of nearby houses change almost once a week. I am continuing with my medicine, and start to take some fruits and vegetable. Sometimes I also come to walk for a while around my house. I am listening CD everyday, and most of the time, I am listening to a song: "One World we can make, all wonders love can bring." It is specially singing for me. Some voices say that they understand with love we can make one world, but I am still suffering from torturing and harassment

I write a letter again to Melbourne Police office to complain that I am being tortured and harassed by some people.

One day three police officers come and talk few minutes with S, they do not talk to me. But my suffering is continuing.

Mar 2002

Some voices say:" We are the joined action of Australia Police and China National security agency." We are investigation you. I feel very angry about they start to talk about my past life. "Her family does not have high positioned." ……. I told them:" If you want to investigate me, you must come to contact my lawyer and follow the legal procedure, you can not use torture .I have "No criminal record certificate". I have the right to protect my privacy."

But they continue torturing and harassing me. I burned my past few years´ daily to show them my anger to them.

I hear some voices to talk about my diseases, discussing how to cure me, but there are also some terrible voices teasing me. A young voice teases "She is my girlfriend." And an old voice also teases:" No, she is my girlfriend." The old voice teases:" He is my son." Some other voices laughing:" the father and the son are fighting for girl friend."

A little rabbit toy in my bed makes them laughing a lot. "Little White Rabbit. White and White, 2 ears prick up!"

Their voices sometimes sound from the roof, sometimes sound from the wall, sometimes sound from neighbors.

One day, I go for a walk near my house, two very young boys around 20 years old riding their bicycle and stop in front of me. They look at me and ask:" Do you live here?" I say:" Yes, No.4 house" They say:" We come from America." They show me a card and say they work for that church. They say:" We have a big house, if you like you can shift to our house." I say:" Thanks. One day I can come to have a look." They ask my telephone number and say good bye to me.

After Few Days later, two boys H and B who are around 30 years old come to my house. They bring me a book and say they want me to go to their church. They come to talk to me for few times. They tell me one of them has Doctor´s degree, He can prepare me the medicines if I am sick. He also gives me some medicines. But one day, they come to see me, suddenly S comes back home and shouts to them:" If you want to talk to her, you can bring her home, you can not talk to her in my house." S´s friend also shouts:" Get out our house!" H and B´s faces are very red, but they do not say anything and go out.

Some voices say:" USA has the most advanced technology in the world. You can go to USA; maybe you can cure your disease there." I ask H and B about this, they look at my passport and make a copy and tell me:" They must ask their higher authorities, but they are not sure where they are able to help me."

On middle March, I receive letter from school, the class will start soon. There are only 3 days classes per week. I go to take 3 times classes in the Executive class and take 1 time in the normal class.

On March, there is suddenly a hearsay coming out: "She is xxx´s daughter-in-law (who is a current top government leader". And at that time a lot of black boys appear, and more and more people believe in this hearsay. Those people who are torturing and harassing me also believe in that hearsay, and stop gossiping day and night, so I can sleep very well.

At nightfall, I would walk for a while around my house, and my walk become longer and longer everyday. One day, I go to see the Doctor. One the way I meet a man around 50. He invites me for a cup of water. He says he comes from Switzerland, he has big business in China, and he can cooperate with me to do business. I tell him that I am studying Master Degree; I wish that I can finish my Master Degree. I also meet a Taxi driver, a black boy, while driving the taxi, he care about my disease, he says:" You should lie down on the bed and take more rest!" I meet an old Chinese lady while I walking, she gives me a medicine, and says:" It is an American Medicine." But I do not eat, because I am taking H and B´s medicines, so I think it is safer to continuing with their medicines.

I go to the USA embassy to apply visa, pay the application fee and take the form home to fill in.

Those people who has been torturing and harassing me for 3 months has changed their attitude, they start saying:" xxx´s son is son of high ranging official, we can not against them."

I seize the opportunity and tell them:" If you can put down your weapons, I will tell other people that it is my own willing to let you practice your weapons on me."

The last time H and B come to see me, they bring many cups. We sit on the floor and they use their cups to build a pyramid. After finishing the pyramid, they take out 2 cups from the middle of the pyramid and seeing the toppling down pyramid and ask me: "We know there are 2 spoiled, but we don´t know which one. What do you think you should do?" I say:" Why don´t you build another pyramid?"

I am hearing CD almost everyday, maybe It is because the song:" One world we can make, all wonders love can bring" to make more people start thinking. I am thinking what I should do a little bit to make "One world."

Some voices say:" xxx´s son believes in Buddhism!" I know at least xxx´s son hearsay is help to save my life. I start to fast! I think this is the right way to do something little to show people that we should love, care and respect all race, religions and cultures. I know that I can not do more things, but only initiate everyone can join and do a little. The first initiations of mine are: love, peace, and environment.

Some voices still say:" Go to USA, we will arrange for you, don´t have to apply visa." They also say:" We will apply medical leaves for you." Because the change of their attitude, I believe in their word. And because even they have stopped to make me suffering from disease, but the harassment is also a kind of torturing.

Apr 2002

1 April 2002

I go shopping; I buy some clothes and go to a glassware shop. But only 2 minutes, all my clothes are stolen, I feel very sad, after come out from the glassware shop, I go to buy another same clothes. A friend of my father who comes from China and now stay in Sydney come to see me and stay in Melbourne for one night, then go back Sydney.

4 April 2002

This is the last day I stay in Melbourne. Tomorrow I will leave here. S lights up a pyramid shape candle. I think that there must be someone who is crying when I am suffering. There is something really unforgettable, even only some very small matter. Some fruits, some instant noodles, it is a trust and it is a caring. I always think it is grateful that there are some opportunity to meet such kind of trust and caring. Maybe it is a destiny. Maybe tomorrow; the day after tomorrow or even the further future, whether there will be another twinkling.