The Grey Of Mental Illness
In America, 9 out of 10 prescriptions written today are for anti-depressants. What does this say about our society and culture?
There are so many labels out there for mental illness; Bi-polar, AD/HD, ODD, PTSD, Psychosis, Metal Retardation, etc. Many of these are unknown but when other people hear that a person has one of these or any of the other millions of known and unknown mental illnesses there is a stigma surrounding the person that is diagnosed with the illness and people treat you differently.
How do I know? I have Bi-Polar Level 1. My condition is currently being treated with medications, but I am still unstable as I can be.
When I am open about my Manic Depression (Bi-Polar) people tend to look at me in a different light and they tend to treat me differently than any other person. I get a lot of “oh you poor thing!” These are four words that anyone with a mental disorder hates to hear.
I cannot help that I have this illness. It is hereditary in nature. I didn’t ask to have this illness, and I didn’t ask to have it to the magnitude that I have it at. One minute I can be as happy as a lark and the next I can be as depressed over the smallest thing. But then I have periods that last two to three weeks of little sleep and very hyper activity. This is the mania portion of my illness. Then I will quickly slide into a depression that can last for the same amount of time.
I admit I am not good with money management and I tend to impulse spend. I think that my spending habits are a cry for help sometimes, like I am missing something in my life that I feel if I don’t have material things, I am not happy.
The worst part of my life is dealing with a child that has AD/HD and learning disabilities. Trying to help him cope with his own illness while at the same time trying to keep my own under control is a challenge, but somehow we manage.
AD/HD is Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder and he will live with this for the rest of his life. I know an adult with the same disorder and she is a productive member of society with a job in a high-ranking state office. Medications and counseling helps people with AD/HD and with people that suffer from Bi-Polar. But we will have these illnesses all our lives and must learn to live a daily routine around them.
It is a livable illness, as most mental illnesses are. And I think that by my coming public that I have this illness will help others out there to know that they are not alone.

